Had everything been in our hands, life would have been much easier and simpler with no further complaints. There comes a phase in every girl’s life where love, lust, infatuation forms an entanglement and you are utterly left confused regarding what to do next. The flame of love affair begins with a simple crush and you slowly begin to idealize that person by placing him at the top most position in your list. Since everything looks a bit messy before turning into a fairy tale the series of likeness and adoration hardly stands still. This feeling from your side continues with no fixed conclusion for there’s hardly any control over it. You enjoy doing it for a short span of time, but later on regret for settling with petty people which to all appearances you shouldn’t have.
I DISMISS FROM MIND THAT I’M MATURING ALONG IN YEARS
Trusting people at first sight just like love made me feel that most people are essentially admirable. Well, I’m not appreciating myself in any way, but I genuinely feel that I’m a good person. But crazy me! I always forget the fact that being good isn’t the ideal trait to be in a kind of tie-up or tie-in phenomenal relationship. I assume that I have the impulse to catch a glimpse of my crushes through an imaginary looking glass which is all blooming and blossomy. The guy no doubt must be nice, but life’s reality and experiences somehow or the other shrinks back my confidence, although I know its quite silly of me to think in this way. In spite of that, my heart constantly seems to erase the previous thoughts making it look all fresh and clear with every distinct guy I go after.
SOMETIMES STAYING SINGLE ISN’T THE ONLY SOLUTION
There’s always a difference between being liberated and self-sufficient and remaining lonely in your own comfort zone. I don’t know how far will people agree with me, but I feel that it’s useless to hang out with millions of people and sharing your thoughts. Rather, I prefer inclining to one reliable person who will understand me and accept the way I am. The vibes of seclusion and heartache I inherit in the middle of relationships is many a time the sole reason that drives me into my subsequent promising flame of love affair.
TO BRING IN A CHANGE IS A GOOD THOUGHT, BUT DID I SUCCEED?
Every phase of one’s life is a perfect blending of mastery and tutoring. I have always followed my heart, because I believed that it wont leave me helpless and clueless unlike others. But don’t know why in spite of remaining calculating and safe with my heart, its difficult and exhausting to keep from bouncing into relationships headlong. I know when I am liking a guy, and its hard for me to blow up the hindrances when all I want to do is pace to the fore.
I BELIEVE IN idealistic Romance A BIT TOO MUCH
No matter what the circumstances are, the first and last eternal truth is that when I fall for a person, I will care for him with all my heart. It’s an easy as pie fact of my life that I favor adoration. I want to love and in return be loved as well. Someway or the other I trust that nothing shall go in vain. My desires and feelings aren’t cheap to vanish within a second. If true love exists, my seeking will be everlasting and continuous. So what if my past was fragmented? It has nothing to do with my present! My passion for my guy is unwavering, and I have a bunch of expectation for the future.
I DOUBT IF I EVER LISTEN TO MY FRIEND’S ADVICE
All friends cannot be considered as family. Only a few handful ones who really cares for your well being and happiness will scold you whenever you go wrong. They warn me from taking hasty decisions, and in the process I am able to see the reflection of their caress towards me. Sometimes I patiently lend my ears to them in order to understand my situation from their point of view. But then there are also certain instances, where I think I have ignored their words and wish I had actually given an importance to their gestures especially when I was trying to mingle with a guy which sadly enough wasn’t meant for me.
I HARDLY LEARN FROM MY PAST MISTAKES FOR A BETTER LIVING
Too much of overfriendliness and opening up to another person isn’t favorable enough, since I have learnt it from my past. I attempt to hold back my private details to me personally in the beginning, but there’s just something freeing about revealing your willpower to someone you adore and intend to be close with. If I l tell everything at the beginning of my very first encounter and after listening to me if he still accepts me with all my perfection and flaws, I am ready to make an advanced move with that tenderhearted guy. It might sound easy but at the same time its quiet contrasted as well. In many instances opening up swiftly furthermore leads to too much of an adversity and for certainty a thumbs down.
SOMETIMES TOO MUCH OF WAITING DIMINiSHES ALL ENTHUSIASM
Patience brings in sweet results says a common proverb. But at times I believe that this phrase is utterly overrated in order to impose a slight philosophical touch on one’s life. in the constant tug of war between the brain and heart who’s going to win at the end in terms of relationship goals no one knows. I do feel that slow and steady wins the race. However, I cannot apply this notion everywhere especially when it comes to love because I grow impatient for I know that my heart has other decisions in store for me. I perpetually have this anxiety that too much of awaiting might slowly diminish my urge in confessing my real feelings for him. And the net consequence will be loosing him forever due to my hesitation.
I AM AWARE OF THE FACT THAT AT THE END I AM ONLY HURTING MYSELF
This life is mine and so are my decisions. I do feel irritated with every stupid actions I have made with regard to my relationship goals, but then who cares right? It’s just that I am only hurting myself either by falling in love too intensely or rather too hurriedly with a blurred and insecure outcome. I get hurt may be because I do not think of any sudden circumstances and immediately fall for an ideal guy a bit too profoundly than he actually deserves.
LOVE IS RISKY, AND I WANT BENEFIts FROM IT
There’s always risk in every task involved so why should love be an exception? Choosing the right guy and then making the first move from my side is quite a difficult task. But then the notion of “slowness” spoils up all the fun for the passion of feeling and experiencing a new love must be headed with a rush. Love is risky, but I want to break down all the barriers and simply enjoy the flux and flow that springs in with new emotions of ardor and passion.Nevertheless, if things do no go as planned, then I will be left with no other option than to blame my fate.
HEART: THE FINAL HEALER
Both mind and heart plays an equally important role in helping you to take decisions. We rely on our mind for reason, rationality and logical outlook. But the heart is too fragile my silly girl! When it comes to relationship issues I simply allow my heart to check or guide me. I want to admire the graceful moments because it had once made me feel special even though its all a past now.
Well, to fall for guys hurriedly and easily isn’t a remarkable way of living one’s life, because sometimes too much of fun and immaturity needs to be sidelined for regaining back our lost senses. But then perception differs from person to person, because your hatred towards this behavior might well be enjoyed by some other person. What matters at the end is your happiness for you are the sole master of your life isn’t.?
Chirasree is highly fond of reading and writing and wishes to create a special niche for herself. She feels that her imaginative skill enhances her potential for writing more. Pursuing literature and an interest in theory and philosophy has inspired her to indulge in books.